by Janine Wetzel
God used a contaminated well on our property to give me a picture of the condition of my heart. It was a not-so-subtle object lesson invite me to respond in more life-giving ways.
Not too long ago, we had a torrential rain. All seemed fine and dandy until nasty brown water started coming out of our faucets instead of the clear liquid we are used to drinking. Come to find out, we had holes in our well cap and ground water contaminated our well. To top it off, we now had bacteria in our water which made it unusable unless it is treated.
As we were trying to figure out the right steps to solve the well issue, it seemed like other issues kept piling up. Mice invaded the garage. Ants attacked the kitchen. We received reports that we may have been exposed to lice.
My anxiety levels peaked as I was running dishes through bleach water, dealing with whining kids, killing ants, caulking my kitchen, feeling the need to clean the house from top to bottom, and trying to make lunch for my family. I was overwhelmed, snippy, and needed dark chocolate.
Much like my well had been flooded with groundwater, my mind and heart had been flooded with subtle lies.
'I’m not enough'.
'I can’t keep up.'
'I’m a failure.'
'I’m not a good mom and wife.'
As the lies flooded in, the output of my mind and actions were contaminated. I was grumpy, impatient, and short with the people I love most.
As I reflected on what had happened later in my time with God, I realized that just like there was a hole in our well cap that allowed the dirty ground water in, there was a hole allowing access to my heart that allowed the lies to seep in. I had to choose to believe the truth of God’s view of me permeate my heart and prevent lies of my inadequacies to contaminate my spirit. I had to choose to walk in gratefulness for God’s abundance in our lives rather than focusing on my fears of not being or having enough.
Proverbs 4:23 NLT. “Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.”